Jovi I don’t know what to think right now. I don’t know what to say and I don’t know how to feel. 

It was so good to reconnect with you; to finally get to say all the things we both wanted to say.  And I was happy to tell you I was sober, I was… ok.  I had a purpose.  You were happy, doing well with your music, enjoying winter in Endamos…

Then I told you I was going to Ildir.  And everything fell apart.

When you told me that Ivan wasn’t who we thought he was I didn’t know what to think.  I’m…