Hey J,

I nearly executed a man today. Nobody else was going to do it and he'd done really bad things and even he knew that he should be executed. We were in a small town though and the people there are good people. Really good people and none of them were killers. 

I thought that at least I would be able to make it quick and clean. He was accepting it with dignity, so I could at least give him that. I was going to do it too. Not the next day, but in like two seconds, and then Turtle Tyrtaeus killed him. Just slid a knife between his ribs. 

I think Tyrtaeus was trying to save me from having to do it, but I'm not sure it helped. The guy collapsed onto me and I felt the life drain out of him as I held him there. It was horrible. What's worse is that I could have fixed it. I could have healed him, made him better, but then he'd just have to die all over again. So I had to just hold him as his lungs emptied and his body went limp.

I'm not sleeping real well right now.

so... um... how are you?

-E