Jovi

Oh life is so strange.  So… I finally did it.  I sobered up and I’m doing my best to stay there. But DAMN the people I travel with are making that so hard!  I mean not everyone… I mean mostly Tyrtaeus…and J/GEFF… occasionally Muse…  maybe a little Olive and Gene … ok everyone.  But Totally mostly Tyrtaeus. He keeps offering me alcohol, and doing stupid things that make me question… things.  So he… I dunno he’s like trying to bring back magic things through making himself… well demony.  It’s complicated.  And as much as I want to condemn him as doing stupidly self distructive things because he can’t let go of something… well that would be pretty hypocritical wouldn’t it?  So I kind of see what he’s doing. I don’t exactly approve of his methods though.

As a side note I should really apologize to Gene because I totally went off on him for ‘hiding’ this from me when I found out about it… or at least, when I realized what had been glaringly obvious to anyone who hadn’t been a functioning alcoholic.  So… yeah.  He didn’t hide anything, I just pretty much actively didn’t see it and in general life is weird sober.

BUT!  Someone actually listened to me about flood plains and break walls and fire breaks…It’s so… gratifying.  Hopefully the sooner I get used to sober, the less crazy life will become. (Stop laughing).

Meli