Jovi I don’t know what to think right now. I don’t know what to say and I don’t know how to feel. 

It was so good to reconnect with you; to finally get to say all the things we both wanted to say.  And I was happy to tell you I was sober, I was… ok.  I had a purpose.  You were happy, doing well with your music, enjoying winter in Endamos…

Then I told you I was going to Ildir.  And everything fell apart.

When you told me that Ivan wasn’t who we thought he was I didn’t know what to think.  I’m…

Jovi

Oh life is so strange.  So… I finally did it.  I sobered up and I’m doing my best to stay there. But DAMN the people I travel with are making that so hard!  I mean not everyone… I mean mostly Tyrtaeus…and J/GEFF… occasionally Muse…  maybe a little Olive and Gene … ok everyone.  But Totally mostly Tyrtaeus. He keeps offering me alcohol, and doing stupid things that make me question… things.  So he… I dunno he’s like trying to bring back magic things through making himself… well demony.  …

Ivan,

I met a man yesterday who could have been me. 

I didn’t really think that when I first met him.  When I first met him I was trying to kill him.  He’d kidnapped children, tried to bind a demon into one of them, and he killed one of my friends.  From the moment we defeated him and Gene the frustratingly pure knocked him out instead of killing him I wanted to end him.  I didn’t even trust myself not to do it in the middle of the night so I focused on taking care of the children… and you…